updates.

Well hello lovelies!! I realized thy I have sounded rather pessimistic on my blog lately... Life is hard sometimes... But I promise that half the time it's just me being an over dramatic teenaged girl who has to have things perfectly her way sometimes... All the time actually... But hey, at least I admit it right?? Boy {yes, him. the one ive been blogging about...} is trying to get me to admit that I'm wrong more often... And let me say, with him it's a lot easier to admit it...

But anyways... Life. Cheer is sadly almost over!! We had our last competition on Saturday, which was kinda rough. But hey, at our last one we took first and won overall! So I would say that it has been a pretty good season!! We only have four {4} region games left. Holy moses. The. We're off to state! I think we are goin all the way this year... That'd be pretty rad!! We are undefeated as of right now!! Let's hope it stays that way!! It's gonna be so sad cheering next year without gabby and all of the other seniors! I love those girls! They have made cheer an adventure!! Its almost even more weird that I'm going to be the oldest and a senior next year!! I still feel like I should be in like 9th grade or something!!! Growing up stinks... You have to worry about school, bills, a job, and to top it all off, a boy! Boy right now is being confusing. We both want the same thing but he decided he wants to play the confusing card and not know what's going on... Gotta love it! Boy is a sweetheart though! And maybe of all goes well, I'll reveal who boy is. Maybe. We'll see how it goes!! Maybe this valentines day I'll actually have a valentine... ;) haha I got asked to the sweethearts dance by Isaiah young!! He is such a sweetheart! I'm super excited! Well I'm falling asleep as I'm writing this... Early morning practice tomorrow... So I better go. But thanks for all of my fellow bloggers/readers!!! Leave a comment so I know you've been here!! Love you all!!! Xoxo

It happened.

I just woke up.

!@#$#@%$^%#$^%$#

ask me if i got the one class that i really really wanted. ap psych. nope.

fml.

what a way to end my day.

school blows.

how the freak am I supposed to study for a test if I don't even know what I'm supposed to be studying?! I hate government.

him.

him and I.... we understand eachother. We can talk our heads off and not get sick of eachother. we are there to listen when we need it. we give advice when we need that too. I'm finding myself falling faster and faster for him. more and more. and I'm hoping that he feels the same way. i love that he can call me anytime and take me on a drive. long drives... those things are good... but dont worry, we are keeping the no parked cars no bedrooms rule. gotta ctr!! teenagers are supposed to take risks. to fall in love more than once. To experience heartache...which by the way I most definitely have. I'm ready to leap. here's to him catching me.

happy monday everyone!! :)

today was actually a rather good day!! i woke up. didnt feel too great but went to cheer anyways. ran my pacers, stretched, tumbled, and started working on the captains dance, but since gabby was hurt, we just helped the other groups. BUT... this is big! i finally learned how to do a back walk over. yes. i have been able to do a backhandspring for 7 years. yes i can do a standing tuck. no. i have never been able to do a back walkover. this was huge! i was loving life!!

after cheer i went to finacial lit. aka nap time. it was much appreciated! seminary with bro judd proved to be good, as always, and lunch i.... dont even remember. but hey. it was good!! then in fourth period, english, we went and started learning about registration for next year... yeah. we register this thursday... holy cow. senior year really is here. i have some big plans for senior year:: cheer captain {hopefully}, stud co {hopefully}, ap calc, ap psyc, concurrent enrollment class, and distant ed. yup. i am loading my schedule up. i always thought that i was going to make my senior year such a breeze, but there is no point in doing that when i could be getting my college credit for FREE. yup. we are so so lucky! to say the least, i am super excited for next year! bring it on!! :)

 after school we had practice, which went wonderful! i love my competition squad and am so happy with how good we have gotten this past year! i cant wait to compete on friday! also, we are performing our competition routine at the halftime tomorrow {tuesday} so EVERYONE COME!!!

registered for efy! rachel stratton are going july 30-aug 4. i seriously can not wait!!

rocked the nappy bun today. i may look a little bit asain, but i sure loved it!! :)

wondering when i'll finally break through...
crossing my fingers and toes.

life as it is.

you dont wana know how many posts i have written without actually posting them... a lot has been on my mind lately. a lot. mostly about the future and what it holds for me. some about the past though. some looking back and wishing that things never changed. some looking back and laughing at the memories. as i reflect upon my life and how its been lately its almost as i come to a stupor of thought. i dont know where the time has gone. im not saying that my life is terrible or bad in the least bit, but its crazy to see what heavenly father puts in our paths and how hard satan tries to pull us down. ive been talking to a friend a lot recently and hearing their thoughts about how sad it is to have all these "friends" that go to church every sunday, do what they are supposed to, and even give the thought in seminary, just to turn around and crack a dirty joke or laugh at something inappropriate or even do something that you wouldnt do in front of your bishop let alone your parents. it kills me at how hard satan is pounding on us, trying to get us to give in even just a little bit. we live in an age where we have so much around us tempting us. its hard to get through things sometimes. its hard to stay happy. but i know that through Him we can do anything. stick to those who will lift you up. not drag you down.

2012 has already flown by in my eyes. its weird to me to think about all that will happen this year. im registering for my senior year this week. senior year. holy cow. im gonna be the big girl on campus... cheer tryouts for the 2012-2013 squad are less than two months away. ryan will be putting in his mission papers and going to serve the Lord for two years. i'll be the only one at home. tiff and jamie are moving to ohio (or iowa?) and then who knows where for law school. my family is growing. changing. but no matter what i know that we will always stay close.

life is great! i love my cheer squad and my friends around me. i love my family and the support and love they show me. i love the little things that make my day. i love when someone says hi to me in the halls. i love life.

wow... when i decided to finally write a post that is not how i expected to be... but it was on my mind and obviously needed to get out.

here are some random pictures that you might enjoy::

red pants? who knew?

preference with kevin urquhart::

competition season is nearing the end::

i know that this has been rather lengthy and boring... but my mind has been in so many different directions lately that its not even funny. i will try to post more often but, you can see how well that is going!!

SHOUTOUT TO MY CHEERIOS::

ladies!!! lets go rock it this weekend! we can do this! i am so proud at how welll did did at our last competition {we took first in our division and won overall as well!!!} we have worked so hard this year! all those early morning practices... lets show utah what we are made of!!! WHO ARE WE?? CHEERIOS!! :)