i have lived in the same house my whole life. with the same people. in the same ward. and with my same family. but then ten years ago it all started to change. i watched as my very first brother received his mission call to serve in rio de janeiro, brazil. then, almost just short of three years later, i dropped my brother off into the provo mtc so he too could go serve the Lord in madrid, spain. then i sat and welcomed a new sister and a nephew into my life all within the two years devin was out. just after the summer i then married my only sister off and cried realizing she was gone. and just this last novemeber, i drove to the mtc and dropped my brother off so he could serve the people of portugal.
as i said before, the past ten years has done wonders for my family. i have sent three brothers out on missions, gained two sister-in-laws, one brother-in-law, four nephews and two nieces.
when i watched all of this happen, i knew that my day would come. i knew that i would have my chance. but i never thought it would be this soon. i never thought that i would have to kiss my sweet little nephews cheek for the last time before i drove away to college. i never thought that i would be the one shopping for my apartment and looking up the cheapest ways to get books. i never thought that i would be moving 220 miles away from the only place that i have ever called home, and i never thought that i would be nervous for it.
i am not a home body. i am very independent and like to do what i want to do. i dont have an amazing relationship with my parents, and i never thought that it would be hard to say goodbye. as the day is drawing nearer, i am dreading the moment when i see my parents drop me off at college, hop in their car, and drive off. this summer has shown me how much my parents sacrifice for me. how much they truly do care for me, and all the lessons they have taught me truly are important. im going to miss those two kids. ill miss coming home and snuggling up to my mom on the couch and watching movies til the wee hours of the morning. ill miss my dad laughing at all of his own jokes, thinking that hes the worlds biggest comedian. ill miss the sanctuary that my parents have provided me.
ill miss my friends. my besties. this is the year where we all part our seperate ways. where we find out who we truly are. each of my friends have left footprints on my heart, and i am truly grateful for that.
now dont get me wrong, i am super excited to move out! sometimes you just have to let out all your doubts and fears and be done with it. i know that this year at school will be one of the most amazing experiences i have ever encountered, and i can not wait to get it started! im excited for my roommates, my classes, and especially the social life that is to come. and i am so extremely grateful for the knowledge that i have about the Savior and the fact that he is always there for me. "before we came to this earth we were shown what we were going to go through, and we said that we would do it." it is of Him, and through Him, and by Him that this is possible.
i probably wont be blogging again
until i get down to cedar city. so until then, i will be doing laundry, packing, and getting ready for the biggest journey of my life so far.
wish me luck!
britt
