life as it is.

you dont wana know how many posts i have written without actually posting them... a lot has been on my mind lately. a lot. mostly about the future and what it holds for me. some about the past though. some looking back and wishing that things never changed. some looking back and laughing at the memories. as i reflect upon my life and how its been lately its almost as i come to a stupor of thought. i dont know where the time has gone. im not saying that my life is terrible or bad in the least bit, but its crazy to see what heavenly father puts in our paths and how hard satan tries to pull us down. ive been talking to a friend a lot recently and hearing their thoughts about how sad it is to have all these "friends" that go to church every sunday, do what they are supposed to, and even give the thought in seminary, just to turn around and crack a dirty joke or laugh at something inappropriate or even do something that you wouldnt do in front of your bishop let alone your parents. it kills me at how hard satan is pounding on us, trying to get us to give in even just a little bit. we live in an age where we have so much around us tempting us. its hard to get through things sometimes. its hard to stay happy. but i know that through Him we can do anything. stick to those who will lift you up. not drag you down.

2012 has already flown by in my eyes. its weird to me to think about all that will happen this year. im registering for my senior year this week. senior year. holy cow. im gonna be the big girl on campus... cheer tryouts for the 2012-2013 squad are less than two months away. ryan will be putting in his mission papers and going to serve the Lord for two years. i'll be the only one at home. tiff and jamie are moving to ohio (or iowa?) and then who knows where for law school. my family is growing. changing. but no matter what i know that we will always stay close.

life is great! i love my cheer squad and my friends around me. i love my family and the support and love they show me. i love the little things that make my day. i love when someone says hi to me in the halls. i love life.

wow... when i decided to finally write a post that is not how i expected to be... but it was on my mind and obviously needed to get out.

here are some random pictures that you might enjoy::

red pants? who knew?

preference with kevin urquhart::

competition season is nearing the end::

i know that this has been rather lengthy and boring... but my mind has been in so many different directions lately that its not even funny. i will try to post more often but, you can see how well that is going!!

SHOUTOUT TO MY CHEERIOS::

ladies!!! lets go rock it this weekend! we can do this! i am so proud at how welll did did at our last competition {we took first in our division and won overall as well!!!} we have worked so hard this year! all those early morning practices... lets show utah what we are made of!!! WHO ARE WE?? CHEERIOS!! :)